God is Good….Everyday

Dear Heavenly Father,
You are good, today and everyday!  Father God, I ask that you would take these feeling of panic and anxiety out of my mind.  Father, I ask for peace, your peace that surpasses all understanding.  God, I know you are in control and you have a reason for this PTSD that I have.  God, I hate this feeling I have.  I  the jitteriness and feeling shaky, the weird feeling in my head and the tiredness.  Father, I ask that you would heal me of these feelings, that I would no longer need medicine for the attacks.

Help me to give you the glory Lord, no matter what happens, I trust you Father.  

II Chronicles 20:17, Lord, I do not need to fight this battle. I want to position myself and see the salvation of the Lord, who is with me.  Do not fear or be dismayed: tomorrow, go out against them for the Lord is with me.

In your name Jesus,
amen

Dear Heavenly Father,

Thank you for being my hope for the future.  Thank you for sending your son to die for us even thought we did not deserve your mercy Lord.  Thank you for Malorie being in our future.  Thank you for a patient, loving, fun, and Christian husband, thank you for Ashleigh and Sawyer.

Father God, I know there is a reason for the way I have been feeling yesterday and today.  I give this to you Father, I know you are in control and you will get me thru this Lord.  Help me to go to you in those times when I do not feel good God.  I trust you Father, you are good, ALL THE TIME.

In your sweet name I pray Jesus,
AMEN

Not Me God, I'm a School Counselor!

It's been a very long time since I have visited this place and a lot has taken place.  In early June, I was at a ballgame and all of a sudden I started to feel very shaky, got a horrible headache, and I could feel my heart racing.  I ended up in an ambulance headed to the e.r.  That was the first of many visits over the summer.  

After tons of tests and blood work, I was sent to Mayo to get some answers.  My husband and I spent a week there with more tests and blood work.  "I think you have PTSD", stated the Dr.  Thinking to myself, I can't have that, no way, I am a counselor, and I know how to take care of myself.  I went thru many emotions, angry, sad, confused, and asked all of the questions, why me????

After much prayer, I am ok with myself and the PTSD.  I was very proud, and I have asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for being proud.  I have been seeing a therapist and taking medication.  Things are much better, I still have a panic attack but they are few and not as bad as before.  I am learning everyday how much I need God to be in control, that he is much better at it than I am or ever will be.

I am learning to take care of myself, eat healthy, get enough rest, drink lots of water, and to share my thoughts with someone else and not keep it all inside thinking I have to fix "it" by my self.
I'll chat more tomorrow about what led up to the PTSD.

God Bless,

Happy Birthday Malorie:)

Dear Heavenly Father, 

Thank you for the 13, almost 14 years  that you let us have Malorie.  What an awesome time we had with her, although it wasn't nearly long enough God.  What a blessing she was to us, and still today, continues to be a blessing everyday.  Mal was a gift, I know she wasn't ours to keep God.  If anyone knew our Mal, you would know what a gift she was.  I am so thankful for all of the lessons she has and continues to teach us.  She taught me how to forgive, she could forgive at the drop of a hat, she taught us what is truly important in life, not to always worry about the small stuff, how to put others first, how important family is, and how to laugh like there is no tomorrow!  

Today Malorie, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETHEART, HAPPY 23RD BIRTHDAY, I love you to the moon and back, no FOREVER sweetheart and Father in Heaven, thank you for using our Malorie to show us what truly is important in this world, YOU, FATHER GOD.

In your name I pray Jesus,

Amen

Its been a very long time since I have posted here.  Lots has happened since my last post. In June of this past summer, I became very ill.  After many tests and lots of blood work I was sent to Mayo in Minn.  My husband and I spent a week there with more test and bloodwork.  

Thank You Jesus!

I have been reading Ann Voscamps book titled 1000 gifts. She keeps a running list of things she is thankful for.

Today, Thank you Jesus for the Praise Music my 17 year old son, Sawyer is listening to!

MY NEW YEAR'S PRAYER:

I used to always set New Year's Resolutions for myself. I have to be honest, those would maybe last a few weeks and fall to the wayside.

So....this year, I am writing a New Year's Prayer.

Dear Heavenly Father, I praise you for you. Thank you for giving us hope. Thank you for your promise to us. Thank you for sending your son to die for me so that I can have salvation thru you. Father God, I love you and I want you to be 1st in my life this year.

Father, I pray that I will obey you this year in a way that I never have before. I want to say yes to whatever you ask, and not always wonder about the consequences. I know God that you will take care of that part too. Show me how I can see more like you, hear more like you do, and be more Holy as you are Father.

Joshua 23:14, "Not one word of all the good words which the Lord your God spoke concerning you has failed; all have been fulfilled foryou, not one of them has failed."

Father God, help me to be a good mom and wife this new year. Keep us safe and bless us Heavenly Father.

I love you.